If I say that to be heartbroken is totally worth it. Will you agree with me?
Heartbreak is terrible, but in some cases in can be quite literal. The moment we feel we do not belong to this world, is the moment we realise where do we stand. Our vision changes, we dream of an entirely new world, we get to know ourselves, ponder upon our mistakes and finding out ways to tackle those problems.
Well, some of you may agree to this after reading this story.
Nobody knows its empty
This smile that I wear
The real one is left in the past
Because you left me there.
Nobody knows I am crying
They won’t even see my tears
I know you’ve wiped them off, but
I still wish you were here.
Nobody knows it’s painful
They think I am strong.
But I wonder if they were wrong.
Nobody knows I am praying
That you were here
They think that I let you go
When you left me there
Nobody knows I miss you
They think I feel set free
But I feel like I am pulled back with chains
Trapped in the mystery
Nobody knows I need you
They say I can do it on my own
But they don’t know I am crying
When I am alone.
I am no lover, lost in the deep dark woods neither a victim of betrayal. I am the consequence of my own deeds, an epitome of failure. I would regard myself as the tiny bit of dirt which has flown its way into the prohibited zone. I consider myself unworthy of the world I live in. Today is the New Year’s Eve and here I am, struggling with oneself. World is an anecdoche to me. I am stuck with my rubatosis which seems unsettling. I am at war with myself. I’ve failed miserably in life, never made it above the runner up. I feel empty. I feel disconnected of my thoughts. I feel trapped in the hedge maze as Harry was, unlike him I’m in search of my PORTKEY. I believe I will find it one day.
I am a workaholic, drowned into the computers. I never care about my family and our discussion are very frequent limited only to –
How was your day?
I know I am wrong and I admit it. I am looking for an answer to what went wrong with me!! There were days when we had our own family time, I used to forget all the office blues and laugh wholeheartedly but those moments lasted way too shorter. When me and my wife parted ways, I started drinking and eventually fell out of pace. I’ve lost my job. I’ve realised that in the race to win, I’m going nowhere but backwards. Days won’t be far when I’ll fall in the pit of despair. There’s no use of crying over spilt milk!! I’ve lost my happiness, lost them all.
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Those were my words 2 years ago. Last month I happened to visit my hometown and that short trip completely changed my thought process, I don’t know how. But I do know that I’ve found the way to find my PORTKEY. I now have a plan this New Year, which is very unlikely of me. It is exciting, entrancing and most probably will unveil me off my fears.
Here are 5 reasons which pulled out the best in me in the worst of situations
1. Went through it, not around it
I realized the most difficult task for a person like me is to stand still and feel the crack. But that is exactly what we must do. Because no shortcut is without its share of obstructions.
2. I need to grieve in order to move on
I cried hard to ease the pain, one and the last time. Dropped out of all interactions for some time, opening the door to my feelings. I learnt to understand them. That was really hard; complicated by anger, fear and shame.
3. Got over my habit
I was reliving my misery over and over again. My pain became my mental habit. I always pulled myself away from thinking about the past. Eventually this habit was broken.
4. Changed the frame of mind
I was hopeless and worthless because the frame I was using was too narrow. But, learning to see my situation with a different frame is now a wonderful liberation.
5. A beautiful fact from Japan
“In Japan, broken objects are often repaired with gold. The flaw is seen as a unique piece of the object’s history, which adds to its beauty.”
CONSIDER THIS WHEN YOU FEEL BROKEN!!!